THE LEAP

The evidence proclaims

There is another of my kind

The laws of physics play their part

To put him where I’ll find.   

But he could look right past me

Because I don’t know how to show

That which is on the inside

And then he’d never know.  

And he could pass right by me

Not knowing what he’s missed

Because nobody looks for

What they think does not exist. 

I’ll make the leap to bare my soul

In case he’s not as strong

I’ll show my heart to you, my friend,

And hope that I’m not wrong.

A BARD'S SONG

A boy with a lute,
A bard with a song,
And this, another performance,
As it’s been all along.

You recite tender words
That you wrote before we met,
Pretend that I’m the muse,
The one you won’t forget.

You almost had me fooled
In believing you could see,
But now it seems so obvious
Those songs were never about me.

And so I sit here
Lonely in the sky,
While you compare her light to mine
And wait to hear her sigh.

LE DESTIN CHOISI

Les étoiles savent
La vérité.
Nous n'étions pas destinés.
Mais, attendez un moment,
Écoutez-moi, mon cher.
Vous êtes la lumière dans la nuit,
Et parfois, le destin peut être change.
Je ne veux pas vous laisser aller
Sauf si vous voulez quitter.

THANK YOU.

I want to thank you.

For believing in me,
If only for a moment.

For comforting me,
Even though it was all my fault.

For loving me,
When I feel like I’m unlovable.

And for walking away,
When you knew it wasn’t right.

APOLOGIES

On mornings like this

I want to apologize
For every unkind word
I’ve put down on paper.

I wake up drenched in memories

Only wanting to return to sleep
Where intentions aren't a question
And reality is the dream.

I speak your name so harshly

Not out of anger, or out of spite,
But in my last hopes in believing  
There’s nothing for me here.

DEPARTED

I’ve long since departed

From the place where I was born,

Drifted to a new land

Where the secrets of life unfold.

Some may call it heaven

And some may call it hell

Some may call it madness

But this is where I dwell.

Pity me, or call me fool,

I don’t really mind.

For when I step into this land

I leave the world behind.

It started with a battle
Against an unknown foe
But I was fighting with the mirror
The part of me I didn't know.
And now stand together
As two parts of a whole
I've finally reunited
The pieces of my soul.

MOVING FORWARD

Though my heart has been the victor
My head still wears the crown,
It's time to change the outcome
Time to turn this all around.
A war against my twisted heart
Which only craves the glory
Of ignoring all the simple facts
To create a better story.
So now the newest chapter,
The next psalm of my fate,
Where I walk away from beautiful lies
To where real happiness awaits.

SOLITARY

We’re all shadows here.

Cast by the light

Of the inglorious sun,

Transposed from pillars

Of copper and stone.

If I step towards the light

I might disappear,

So I don’t move an inch

I’m suspended in fear.

The darkness is my haven

Where I can feel free

But in so, it’s my cage

A prison of me.

EVERY STORM RUNS OUT OF RAIN

Are you feeling insignificant?
Do you think that no one cares?
Are you trying to throw your life away
Because you think it isn’t fair?
I understand your resentment
To a world not made for you
But if you waste it being angry
You’ll miss the good things too.
I’ve tried to tell you, tried to say,
You mean the world to me.
My oldest friend, you’re in my soul
Is that something you can’t see?
To watch this constant hurricane
Devour all your days,
Puts me in a standstill
Not knowing what to say.
I have no wisdom for you
I have no sagely advice
I don’t have any answers,
Solutions for a better life.
What I have is friendship
To ease your swelling doubts
Every storm runs out of rain,
Friends help blow away the clouds.

KNOWING IS HALF THE BATTLE

You look at me like you know.
Someone else has done that before.
But with you there's sincerity,
In your words there's more clarity,
In your actions kinder thoughts.
Why can't my heart accept
What my brain already knows?
You aren't him.

It's hard to open the door
That I was so adamant to lock.
It's hard to give my love away
When love's so easily lost.
But you know about this heartache,
Dying slowly just for love's sake,
Until it feels like nothing's left.
I want you to see I'll protect your heart,
So I look at you like I know.

AT SUNDOWN

Click, bang, grin
Holster my weapon again
I'm two steps ahead of you
And just like you said to me
I'll probably kill you in the end.

You're more than an outlaw
But you cannot outdraw
The fastest gunslinger in the west.
My words are my ammo
My dear, you are too slow
So this is your literary death.

When I said I understand you
That should've been your first clue
To turn around and run
But now you must face me
You won't get away free

Click.
  Bang.
     Grin.

SUPERNOVA

Like waking up from a dream
You've almost forgotten
Who I am.
There's not much time
Left for us now
Before I become
Just a story in your head.
An echo
Of a star burned out
Long ago.
We were something once
But all things radioactive
Must change
To stabilize.
I'd rather explode.

BEHIND THE LIES

Lies

Not in your words

But in your eyes.

You shift your gaze

Away from me

To hide your face

So I can’t see

Your body language

Is constructed

As a ruse

For your amusement

In making women think

They've picked up

Your unconscious signals

That what you’re hiding

Is how you feel

But what’s in plain sight

Is that you don’t.

That ‘accidental’ brush

Of your hand against my leg

Or that song that

Just so happened to play

The subtleties in

All the things you say.

But then all of the things

That you never could have planned

The perfect responses to my thoughts

As if I had accidentally

Spoken them aloud.

Then the rest of the world started singing along

And all the noise around me

Turned to sound

Which at times seems like a symphony

A waltz, or poetry.

But usually

Like the universe is colliding

Reality is collapsing

Destiny is calling

The matrix is glitching

Lagging

Crashing

Rebooting.

AGELESS

The soul is ageless.

It knows no boundaries of time or space

Or conditions pertaining to

A corporeal form.

It is a shared energy,

A metaphor,

Borrowed from the universe

Connecting all of life

Where I start to lose my sense of ‘Me’

And realize

I am older than I appear to be.

My atoms sprung from ancient stars

All whispering the secrets

Of life, and love,

And power

And destiny.

So here I am,

Deciding which part of the universe to be

When I realize

Undoubtedly

The universe is me.

TWISTED

Twisted is my love for you

That which breaks my heart in two

One half that wants the best for us

And one that seems to lack the trust.

One half that learns and makes mistakes

Until that other half awakes

Which doesn't want to compromise

Or ever feel cut down to size

It comes out at the worst of times

And it commits unspeakable crimes

Against the better half of my heart

So I must ask it to part

For I cannot go on like this

These halves can't peacefully coexist.

I want to keep this love of mine

And so my heart must recombine

And go back to it's former self

To save at least, my mental health,

And remind me I have love to give

If you have patience and can forgive.

THE MACHINE

In a world of black and white
I see in technicolor
Punish me for what I see
For I am like no other.
You can put me in a mould
And try to change my shape
Use fear to keep me in my place
So I can not escape,
But I would give my life to show
The world the truth I see
I would rather die than stay
A part of this machine.

PRISONER

I can't tell
Is this hell
Or purgatory?
These games of the mind
Trapped in fragments of time
This mystery.
What cosmic law have I broken?
Where is the truth in these lies?
Which taboo word have I spoken,
That I must live in the heart of these sighs?

A FINALE

I was dizzy
Drunk on a love that
Was nothing but insanity.

You were everything I'm not
And somehow that translated
As destiny.

It's bittersweet
The way you walked away from me
Like I should have done
To you.

I should be hurting
But for the first time
In a long time
I am not

THE ROBOT

I fell in love with a robot

A shiny piece of steel

When he smiled in my direction

I almost thought that he could feel.

He knew just what to say

As if he could read my mind

And I saw my reflection 

In the way that metal shined.

When I pulled him closer

I thought I heard a beat

A heart within this robot?

Could he really be so sweet?

But when I opened up his chest

To see what I would find

There was nothing where a heart should be

The heart I heard was mine.